My mood has been going up and down for the past week. I was enthralled into an uncontrollable situation. I know the reasons for these behaviour. I just could not help myself to get out of the unhappiness freshly buried inside me everyday.
I had tried a hard approach to deal a situation and seemed it had not improved a bit. Instead, it had put more stress in me and the patience level had decreased tremendously. Determination and confident level are also not as strong as before. I am wearing out of disappointment. I do not know how long it will carry on.
I want to see light in my looming avenue. I must have faith in myself. I have been very brave because I do not allow myself to fall terribly. I do not even know if I am really that strong. If I am strong, why did I lose weight and suffer unstoppable tummy ache? Will I be able to overcome another ordeal? Shall I remove my armor and gain some empathy?