Life has been a roller coaster. I have already not known how to make it simple and stable. Just got to know a reason to the cause of my misery. Not a satisfying answer and my problem is still unsolved. Nevertheless, the feeling of doubt is clearer than before. I know time will tell and reveal, a matter of predestined fate or something else...but how long do I have to wait? I hate to wait. I need assurance and waiting is wasting of time. Instead of exercising on time, be a little courageous may help to shorten the waiting time. Isn't it?
Frens have been telling me not to think so much or brood over it but it is really difficult to control one's mind.
Happiness is so difficult to grasp. Am I asking for the impossible? Why am I thinking in this way? Am I asking for too much? I will always wonder what I am seeking for in 'Happiness'. I had been thinking of it for a long, long time. In Friendship and love, both are so hard to maintain.